Lost in the day-to-day existential battle I have a sense of lost identity. While I am productive, have a nice well-paid job, a good relationship, my lack of connection to other humans (friends) is low, and my sense of self is lost. I do not know who I am anymore or where to go. This lack of purpose and aim is pretty heavy. What are some tools that you can advise on getting one back up and finding passion and purpose?
Two years ago I was told I had a 50% chance of a lump in my breast being breast cancer and had to urgently have an operation to remove the tumor. The entire process was excruciating due to the sense of urgency and the procedure itself, as it was during the pandemic and I had to travel alone in an Uber from one hospital to another - admitted day 1 for blood work, then the second day to go to a different hospital for a harpoon insertion, then the same day straight back to the original hospital on the operating table to remove the tumor. All alone. Then 2 weeks of waiting for the biopsy results. It was benign, but I had fun, as you can imagine. Now I'm stuck with this fear of anything remotely similar to doctors. I get a panic attack at the beauty center just by seeing the ladies there dressed in white. All this activated trauma from childhood as well. Given the context, what is the best treatment for this? I do therapy, I do my regular blood work and tests but I'm just scared AF everytime.
What are the primary factors that govern the modulation of post-activation potentiation, and how can a thorough understanding of these factors be strategically harnessed to enhance athletic performance and refine training methodologies within the field of strength and conditioning?