What are the mental, emotional, physical, and spiritual effects of family estrangement? After a lifetime of abuse, I was forced to separate permanently from my family of origin as well as extended family and any friends of the family. The complexity of the grief continues to baffle me and I feel something more biological is at play. I know this experience is a lot more common than spoken about and I wonder how adults learn to live and fully heal. Thank you.
Have you heard of the book "Blue Mind: The surprising science that shows how being near, in, on, or under water can make you happier, healthier, more connected, and better at what you do"? The author, Wallace J Nichols, describes Blue Mind as "a mildly meditative state characterized by calm, peacefulness, unity, and a sense of general happiness and satisfaction with life in the moment"
I believe if I had the opportunity to do ayahuasca it might have the potential to afford me a much better life than the prison I sometimes feel I live in mentally. However, I have never done any drugs (or alcohol) and I'm not sure I could physically get myself to do it because of fear. Do you think the risks of this experience outweigh the potential upside? Thank you.